I can attest to the above quote. When I was writing Reagan Leeds: Run The World for nearly two years, there were many periods I felt very alone, which is not anything I’m not used to anyway. I’ve always been a loner, and as an introvert, I enjoy my own company.
I can remember times of being up until the wee hours of the morning (like right now) working on Reagan’s story, either editing, taking pictures, or shooting out paragraphs. I could leave the surrounding world around me and enter into another one entirely within my mind. I felt my characters’ emotions, and I empathized with what they were going through. Some of my characters made me angry, even though I was the one writing the story. Even Reagan herself wasn’t always my favorite character, but if she were to be real, she had to be realistic and have layers to her personality as we all do in the real world.
I did push myself when I wrote for Reagan and the other characters, but I’d always felt I was a bit PC at times. But now with my new story, Reign in the works, I want to get out of my comfort zone and write the story that I feel is true to life and resonates with me. Many subjects I’m uncomfortable with exploring, but I feel as if I must.
I am not going to rush this new story, and it has been taking me longer than I thought to publish the first chapters, even though I have some that are already written. I want it to be right, but sometimes I trip myself up with thinking things must be perfect. That is one of the problems as face being so alone in my head as I create. I think I make up all these rules to hold myself accountable to, but they aren’t that important. I’m such a perfectionist, and I fear that may hinder me in the long-run.
I am going to task myself with a commitment to write at for at least an hour every other day in the coming weeks. I think it will get better once I have content out there for everyone to read.
All the best,